Memorified Moments

Sunday, July 09, 2006

is this how my life gona be? i have lots of anger within myself.. i cant find a place to vent it.. i thank god for givin me a chance to prove myself that i can be a patient and understanding person.. which i have never did, feel or being in that positions before.. is this a retribution for my sins or wrong done that ive did in my previous life.. if that is.. i have no reasons that i should be angry with god.. i belive that everyone believes in what goes around comes around.. im bersyukor that im a much patient and not the person i use to be.. changin of attitudes and behaviour is rather hard for me but i owaz pray that i'll be a better person in future.. i might not be good in studies.. but at least i need to be good in my ways and showing gratitutes to people who tried changing me.. am i too sensitive? am i gettin more and more emotional till people are getting sick of me and losing hope on me which they expected me to be or rather want me to be.. im trying my very best to cheer, being there for them every single day of life.. almost everything.. sacrificing.. and are they apperciating me..? i dono.. people tell me.. i need response.. i think im owaz at fault and i need to boost up my ways.. i need to fit in their shoes.. and me? how about me? isnt there anyone wana fit in my shoes.. y am i feeling this way.. my guts are telling me its true.. am i the one? am i too ugly and fat now that people jus hate me now and love before.. maybe im jus bein sensitive again or might getting nonsense since its late at night..i hope the guts that im feeling its not true~ if its true.. i wont blame anyone.. maybe im jus not that good no more..

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